Monday, September 28, 2009
Shindeldecker Family Reunion 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
The Smith Boys' Band
Monday, September 21, 2009
A few days away...
David and I loved being away. It is so strange sleeping all night without random crying and talking. The boys were back in Muncie with my parents. Though David and I were having such a great time, I missed Jonah and Judah sooooo much. I called every chance I got to see what they were doing. Jonah was continually entertaining my parents with his drumming or off the wall comments while Judah just smiled like he usually does. Before we left Muncie, David and I joked with my parents that their goals were to get Jonah potty trained and to get Judah walking before we returned home. Jonah hasn't pooped in his diapers since we left Muncie (6 days ago) and Judah has actually stood on his own for a few seconds. Dad told me today that we will have to hire he and mom to come and complete the potty training for Jonah. HaHa probably not but wow, he is definitely making tremendous progress.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Four Years Ago and Today
Today is Zoe's birthday. It has been a good day. I spent so much time over the past weeks and especially yesterday pouring our my thoughts and emotions that I feel like I was able to spend today celebrating the life of my precious little girl, Zoe Dawn Smith.
This morning, David, Jonah, Judah and I visited Zoe's grave before church. When we arrived, we noticed that someone had already been to her grave and had placed flowers in her vase. The flowers had a card tucked in them. They were from Tanya, Martha, Eric and Zoe Beth. The card and the sentiment attached to the gesture meant so much to me and David. David and I had also brought flowers...roses which we had taken from the rose bush planted in memory of David's mom. It is special and extremely significant to be able to place those flowers on Zoe's grave, connecting to of the most beautiful females we know. After giving Zoe her flowers, our family sang Happy Birthday to Zoe and we kissed the "O" (like we always do). It was so precious to see Jonah run up to kiss the "O" as soon as he could get out of the car. David told me later today that Jonah was actually going around kissing the "O's" on the other graves as well. I am sure that their mothers would have appreciated that gesture...
We spent some of the day looking at video of Zoe but much of the day was very normal, church, football, a nap and playing with the boys. Sometime before supper, I suggested to David that we give his brother and dad a call to see if they wanted to join us back at the cemetery for a walk and visit at Zoe's grave. We thought that we would end the evening getting ice cream in honor of Zoe's birthday. It was an enjoyable evening at the cemetery. Both times we were there today, there were practically no other vehicles and so we could let the kids roam free on the roads. In one area of the cemetery, the kids (plus David and Danny) found a huge mountain of mulch and enjoyed a climbing adventure. Josiah remarked that "this is the coolest" and we commented on how are kids have no fear of cemeteries but actually think they are fun to visit. After letting the kids run around in a grassy area, we decided to go back to Zoe's grave and sing Happy Birthday and kiss her "O" again before we left. I think that Josiah and Hannah could have spent the rest of the night kissing the "O". It was sweet to hear Hannah tell Zoe that she misses her, even though she was not even 2 when Zoe was born. Those kids are so adorable and it is so special to celebrate Zoe's life with them.
Football
Saturday, September 12, 2009
An Emotional Afternoon
Today, Jonah took David to a friend's birthday party (ironically, this friend is 1 day older than Zoe would have been) while I stayed at home with Judah and attempted to put my thoughts from September 13-19th (the day of Zoe's funeral) into words. David and Jonah just arrived home but David said that he would take the boys downstairs to watch football while I finish my thoughts. I have spent the last few hours typing, looking at old pictures, and crying. Wow...it is amazing how raw the emotions still feel at times...I guess that is especially so when one is trying to place them self back in the moment in order to recapture the experience. I cannot remember everything that happened but I did remember a lot. I am so glad that I spent this energy of which i am now depleted to put my life with Zoe into writing. I invite you, if you would like, to revisit those memories with me. They can be found in the 2005 section under September 13th-19th.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Happy Birthday Al
So, on Labor Day, we loaded up the troops and headed to Coney Island. It definitely is a hole in the wall, but it is a great experience and it is quite fitting that this has become Al's birthday tradition. This year, before moving on to dessert at my favorite ice cream place (Cold Stone Creamery), Al led us to the creek where he used to play as a child. Al enjoys taking Jonah (and the other grandkids) to throw stones at the creek by our house (Al and Karen live just around the corner so the creek is near their house as well). During one of those walks, Al told Jonah that someday he would take him to his creek as a kid. So, on Monday we did just that. Al seemed to enjoy showing all of the grandkids his creek and the adults all seemed to enjoy watching that happen. Happy Birthday Al! We love you a ton!